How Psychedelics Changed My Sex Life | Stefana Bosse

Stefana Bosse of the UK Psychedelic Society

Psymposia Psychedelic Stories @ Breaking Convention 2017

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[00:00] I've been sitting all day with whether or not should share this story and wondering whether it would take away some of the it's a it's incredibly intimate story and wondering if by sharing it I'm going to lose some of the pearly preciousness wondering if by using something that is traditionally very sensationalist I'm going to see attention-seeking or whether I'm going to become you know sex on acid girl all over the internet but I really think

[01:04] That the reason I decided to share is because just like I think it's so important that we speak about psychedelics I also think that it's really important we start a collective conversation about sex and loving and how to really harness the potential of that and this particular story really changed my sex life so okay here we go so the setting is at a kind of co-created Burning Man style event but like much much smaller you know like hundred people where everyone kind of knows each other it's all friendship you but is this kind of yeah celebratory very free open environment and as part of the story I have to say that there there's a chunks of the people that go

[02:04] To those events that you know I really like to also explore love and open sexuality and with multiple people and so forth so there often happens to be a so-called play room and this particular event there was even a play house which was separate so anyway there's someone there that I'd been involved with for quite a number of months and we had a beautiful connection and I had taken don't remember how much but kind of standard dose of LSD and I was really in the peak of my trip when we came to a moment of connection and you know it's very very beautiful very deeply sensual and the moment came that we're like okay we really want to explore this further so where to go it was incredibly stormy so actually both our tents had been you know just totally destroyed and blown away so like hey let's go check out this Playhouse situation really luckily actually there was no one

[03:06] In there to begin with anyways so so he's kind if there is a there's a bottom area and then there was upstairs a big kind of bedroom and we were really happy to go go in there and then I mean there's so many aspects that I could talk about in this experience but I think the two main things one is it really really really on such a deep level taught me what it means to open up and to let another being enter your body and they were just I mean anyway of course like the heightened sensitivity like every little point of contact every moment of just entering one layer deeper into me but then there'd be these moments when maybe something was slightly uncomfortable or there was just a hesitation or just something where my instinct reaction was actually to move away from it but because I was in the

[04:08] Psychedelic state I was like wait a second what is that and can I just stay with it and can I explore it just like you would in a psychedelic therapy session with a monster with something you know I was really like what is it can I just stay with it and explore it and every time I did that it was like a cosmic gate had opened like one level deeper inside Foom okay like let him in and open up and yeah it was just really extraordinary and would just like happen and it really like going deeper and deeper into my own being and letting this real merging happen and then so there was a constant I mean it was really like an hour's long experience and we were kind of having intercourse and then he would go down and intercourse and so forth and at some point he was giving me a lot of pleasure with his tongue and there was really this moment that I felt he's also opening up in terms of you

[05:08] Know really vocal channels and everything at one point there was this moment of where I really felt like he was I had this image of the Hindu god Krishna which is the god of love and compassion and he plays his flute and I really felt like I was just a vessel I was an instrument I was so open so everything broken free and he was just playing me and I really felt like we're all my chakras was just like the holes of the flute and it was just coming out and like and it was it really it was it wasn't it was a sense of it wasn't me it was just you know notes coming out and because it was quite an orchestra people had it would come from downstairs and actually been very curious to see who were those two people you know making all that noise and so at one point I heard people coming up the stairs I heard footsteps and there I was yeah legs wide open and this is incredibly exposed and vulnerable position and they were just right in front of me and I was dogs I couldn't

[06:10] Really see who it was and I had this flash of feeling really self-conscious like oh god I'm super exposed and they're watching and like my whole attention had shifted towards them and then I just took a moment I was like but actually I'm having the most amazing sexual experience of my entire life and then because again I was in the psychedelic heightened state of consciousness and had this incredible power over these different aspects of my mind I just took that self conscious part worrying about them and I was like food just like shifted right down to where there was so much happening and then just managed to again explode into the most beautiful orgasm right in front of those people and yeah it's really beautiful month months later I never I'd four months I didn't know actually who had witnessed this moment in the end I'm actually very happy that they did it feels very beautiful I was witnessed and months later someone told me like can I tell

[07:10] You why you're risking secret they told me that they had seen so yeah there are lots of there lots of things other things that I could share it but it was just really I don't think you know sex on psychedelics it's something very so much could go wrong with her just like so much can go wrong and you know having sex with the wrong person but I think when you have that level of connection with somebody and there's so much to explore and that altered states of consciousness and it was really yeah unity and interconnectedness on a whole other level and it the reason why it changed my sex life I mean many different things but it taught me this thing about opening and just being present and the really the power of attention and how important it is in sex and for the first time in my life that that night I understood I think what you know what Tantra is all about or what this idea of sex is

[08:10] Something very sacred in actually has a profound spiritual path and a path for spiritual growth and yeah it was great